Sometimes I feel like I just need a hug. I just want a hug. However, I know I can't let anyone hug me.

I have always been the type that has wanted hugs. I have always felt like when my friends and family was in pain I wanted to hug them... To hold them if even briefly to try and make it better.

I have just always wondered if someone would want a hug from me? Why they would want me to hug them?

So I had a friend who was in pain and I asked if I could hug them. It was nice to be able to give that comfort. It continued but then when I needed that support. When I was ready to kill myself instead of a hug I got yelled at and stomped on.

Now I know I can't do that. I can't hug anyone or let them hug me. It is not safe... Not for me or for them.