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      • ?
        08/29/09

      • When will it end?
        08/28/09
        When?

      • What I have done...
        08/26/09
        I have ruined too many lives. :-(

      • Conflict...
        08/25/09
        So I seem to be conflicted. Part of be is buying stuff and waiting for it to arrive. However, much of me just doesn't want to be here. I don't know if the buying is so that I keep having something to wait for... Some reason to be here. I don't know. I know I have been trying to

      • I am sorry.
        08/24/09
        I am sorry that I have been such a problem to everybody. I know that I am not worthy of this life and I am for sure not worthy of the next life.

      • Not for me...
        08/24/09
        I see everybody I know with their friends and family and it makes me both happy and sad. It makes me happy to see them happy but it makes me sad because I know that will never be me. I will never have the happiness of a loved one or a family. It would be better for me to just leave.

      • The best thing...
        08/22/09
        The best thing that could happen is if I were to die in my sleep.

      • My attention
        08/22/09
        It has come to my attention that I really serve no purpose here. No matter how much I might like to think I do that is important, much of it is not. The very few things that are important are things that others can do or can learn to do in a very, very short time and will probably do it much bette

      • It is just time for me to go.
        08/22/09
        I don't belong here anymore, nobody wants me here anymore, I don't want to be here anymore. Time for me to go away.

      • Better if I had just died...
        08/22/09
        I still think it would have been better if I had just died last summer. Then I would have no longer been a problem to anyone. I am really thinking about changing my living will to DNR so that the next time I get really sick and get that close, they will have to let me die. I guess I am just tired

      • No body would...
        08/20/09
        I don't think anybody would really miss me if I were gone.

      • Better...
        08/10/09
        Really beginning to think that a bullet to the head would be better...

      • Mixed...
        08/05/09
        So is possible to love someone and to hate them at the same time? I still very much love the person who treated me so unkindly yet I find myself wanting to hate them. I don't know what I want now. I had hoped that we could be friends but I don't think that is possible... I am also afra

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