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      • Am I worth it?
        06/30/10
        Am I worth the trouble? Am I worth the effort of others? Am I worth the heartache everyone goes through because of me? Am I worth being here?

      • What if
        06/28/10
        What if I have to go for surgery?
        What if while I am gone I do something or say something to make more people mad?
        What if when I get back I lose more friends?

        What if I don't tell anyone?
        What if I don't have surgery even if I need too?

        What if things

      • Not sure what the questions is... so how can I know the answer...
        06/20/10
        I have come to realize that my issue with hugs really symbolizes my issue with life. I like hugs, I want hugs, I need hugs... but does anybody want a hug from me.

        I wonder if I am worthy of hugs... I wonder if someone does hug me is it just because they feel like they have to hug me or

      • DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT
        06/10/10
        Found out today that my kidney stones are back. I knew that there were very tiny fragments left... but these sound big. This explains why I have been having more back pain.

        I just don't know what to do now? I have to get a CT, a kidney function study, and some lab work. After t

      • Better?
        06/09/10
        Today someone was here and was going on how much better my depression is and how glad she is that I am not where I was a year ago when I felt like I was unwanted, unneeded, and a bother and a pain... I just couldn't tell her that what she is seeing is more of a good front. I think the "b

      • Saying good bye
        06/07/10
        Sometimes I think I should just tell everybody goodbye and then just go. I am just afraid if I did tell them goodbye I would just be bothering them. Maybe it is just better to go.

      • WHY
        06/03/10
        I still wonder why I survived in 2008? I wonder what the purpose was / is of me surviving? I know it is his plan and we are supposed to have faith but damn it, I want some guidance. I am not asking to see the future or for every freaking detail, just give me the big picture... what the hell am I

      • Selfishness
        06/02/10
        Sometimes... I really do wonder what is more selfish, everyone having to continue to face the heartache or for it to just be over, let the grieving happening and then to move on.

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